Each year worse than the last
Jan. 4th, 2026 09:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
missizzyI've spent the past two days wondering, among other things, how my father felt, on the night we first invaded Iraq, and the days after. I've got the feeling that he, with his particular position in DoD, was more of an accessory to that invasion than I am likely to ever be to any, so long as I merely remain in the library. He stayed in his job for another year, before taking an early retirement. That was partly due to his health, but I know it was partly due to the war as well.
I, of course, am still too young to take any kind of retirement, or to even think there'll be much of one on offer by the time I get old enough. I know I am expected to go to work tomorrow as usual, and I will. I have not yet reached the day when the combination of the fact that losing this job would leave me unlikely to ever be gainfully employed again with my family's woes is not enough justification to do so. But that day feels a lot closer tonight than I did 48 hours ago.
We got further bad news this morning, too, when the man delivering our groceries advised us Giant is shutting down their delivery service, and just having DoorDash do it. I suspect this will mean a drop in quality, possibly even a big one. And none of that will even matter for those increasing number of items that are suffering shortages. After we failed to get sandwich bread with our deliver this morning, I ran down to grab it, and found the shelves mostly empty. They had wonderbread still available, so I fell back on that. This time.
I, of course, am still too young to take any kind of retirement, or to even think there'll be much of one on offer by the time I get old enough. I know I am expected to go to work tomorrow as usual, and I will. I have not yet reached the day when the combination of the fact that losing this job would leave me unlikely to ever be gainfully employed again with my family's woes is not enough justification to do so. But that day feels a lot closer tonight than I did 48 hours ago.
We got further bad news this morning, too, when the man delivering our groceries advised us Giant is shutting down their delivery service, and just having DoorDash do it. I suspect this will mean a drop in quality, possibly even a big one. And none of that will even matter for those increasing number of items that are suffering shortages. After we failed to get sandwich bread with our deliver this morning, I ran down to grab it, and found the shelves mostly empty. They had wonderbread still available, so I fell back on that. This time.
