missizzy

We've all heard the claims this year. Everyone wanting to believe that the majority of Americans are good people, really, who don't want all the horrible things our government does; we just aren't in position to elect people who won't do them. How there are all these people whose votes are being suppressed, and all we have to do is....well, I've never been sure anyway. All we need is turnout, they said. Cultural values are getting better, they said.
But none of that bullshit can explain away Virginia. We had plenty of voters who were willing and able to help vote out Trump last year, and they were perfectly able to keep him out this year. But the minute it's not his name on the ballot anymore, and a few people are asking that maybe this country finally acknowledge how damn racist we've been and still are, they hand the state right back to the Republicans. Even knowing what's happened in places like Georgia and Texas as a result, that in all likelihood the Democrats will now never be allowed to win here again, and that's probably Congress flipped next year right there, which means its either Trump or someone even worse becoming dictator in 2025 too.
That was always the problem. We had to get lucky every time, and they only had to once. But it would've been nice if we hadn't fallen at the first hurdle. Now we've got three whole years to dread the final fall, and contemplate what can happen to us then.
Although I've already been doing that. Thoughts about how you can't really survive the collapse of society due to climate change tend to happen a lot when you're disabled. Honestly, watching the Biden agenda fail, it's long occurred to me that if he doesn't stay in power, I'm screwed no matter what happens. Don't talk to me of revolution either, by the way. I definitely wouldn't survive the events of that.
So I'm done with it. I've probably only got a few years left. I need to figure out what to write so that it gets read as much as possible now, because there won't be any legacies for anyone, and maybe how to reduce my suffering as we wait for the end. (Without killing myself. I won't give them the satisfaction, at least not until such time as I'm facing down a far worse fate as the alternative.) No, don't talk to me about this country anymore. I no longer have that kind of time.