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[missizzy]

It was another bad week for me. This time I don't think as much actually happened, but my depression got really bad anyway, worse, I think, than it's ever been. I'm not sure I'm even going to continue with my art class; Tuesday night was so much of an ordeal. It was after that I decided I need to see a therapist, because I'm no longer sure I can even make it through the year otherwise. I've now got an appointment, but it's two weeks away. I don't think I'll do anything drastic in that time, but it may get a very rough.
Tomorrow we go to see the cinematic broadcast of the Met's Porgy and Bess. I saw the first part of the opera on PBS some time ago, but then fell asleep. I'm hoping to stay awake this time, but I already haven't gotten enough sleep these past two weeks-even when I attempted to last night, I got hit by the worst bout of insomnia I've suffered in the last decade. I may or may not be awake for the Australian Open ladies final in a few hours time.
Though this is the first time I've had ESPN+ for a slam, and I've actually gotten to watch a variety of types of tennis that way. I even watched wheelchair doubles for the first time, which is kind of fascinating, with all the ways ball and players alike move differently than they do in standing tennis.

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[sparowe]

This organisation is in the UK, so calling them might be difficult, but when I was unemployed and struggling with suicidal ideation, being able to communicate with them really did help me: https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/write-email/

Also please remember that you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline even if you don't feel in imminent danger of acting on an impulse. I talked to them as well, and they were able to help me find treatment options in my area at that time, despite my financial status: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ 1-800-273-8255

I'm not suggesting this in lieu of therapy, I think that's a good idea, but I know sometimes two weeks can feel really long.

[missizzy]

Thanks. I'll keep all that in mind.

[marginaliana]

Hey, friend - if there's anything I can do to help, let me know. I'm always willing to listen.

[missizzy]

Thank you.