Worst Day

This has not been the best of years, but today was particularly bad. I woke up in severe pain that would occur later in the day with insufficient explanation; I may have to go back to the doctor though I doubt how useful he would be. Later I learned I am only getting extended at my job for six months and will have to find another one after that. I'll get a lot of help in doing so, but I have grave doubts as to whether that will really do the trick. Now my sister and her husband have put down his old cat a week after she had a stroke and stopped eating. As if we haven't been dealing in death enough already, what with my father's cancer.
Now I must find time to go looking for other jobs Write those cover letters I just absolutely hate churning out, walk into those interviews knowing I'm hopeless at selling myself, send out application after application mostly for rejection slips. They keep telling me with two years work under my belt it will be different, but will it really, when employment rates remain dismal for people my age? And with my father about to die, going back to unemployment could spell real disaster for not only me, but also my mom. I thought I escaped all this. Was I deluding myself all this time, the same way we all were about dad's cancer until a month ago?